4/19
Had a great lunch with Natalie. She is so cute and so fun to be with. I wasn't really ready to sell her the product but she actually asked for it. So, she ended up getting the product from me via my membership just to try it out. Start driving this YW named Liza. I just love her from head to toe! She is so talented in so many ways - talented ballerina, excel academically, love science and fascinated with the human body. Super discipline and already have a goal in life and plans for how she is going to achieve that path. She is definitely a dream child for all parents.
I suddenly realized that I have done wrong in many way while raising my children. We used to ground our kids from activities when they do not perform well at school. I can see parties, TV time and play day being removed form the list, but definitely not healthy activities such as sports, and instrument practices. Grounding will discourage learning!
This is what I can do as a parent after talking and reading from successful kids:
1) Help the child know their passion when they are young. (Nothing illegal and harmful of course)
2) Enroll them to school occupy their time so they can learn about that subject. (Be it an instrument, sport, art classes, or programs for making inventions etc. Kids will learn to perfect their skills through practices)
3) Be persistent and encouraging about the subject they share.
4) Be patient with the time and effort we put as a parents. (It can be nerve racking when we feel we don't have enough time to run their schedule. Kids will learn to manage their schedule and prioritize their time accordingly as they get older. I have seen many accomplished kids see visions, want to be the best and very ambitious about their future!)
5) Allow them to play, practice, and work without interruption. (They will developed the needed focusing skills for future)
Both Evan and Jeannie are so much older now, I guess Jady is our last hope?! :)
Thursday, April 21, 2016
4/6-4/18
4/6
Looking back on the medication I got, the trips to the neurologist, scanning, rheumatologist, dentist and acupuncturist. I hate to admit that getting old is in full force. Let's hope the supplement would help alleviate the symptoms. :)
4/9
Seriously? Snowing in April? And if this is not crazy enough! Johnny and Evan actually went fishing with a new friend (who is also from HK)! What's even more fun is that Johnny caught five trouts! Don't know how they handle the cold for so long, but I enjoyed every bite of my fish! :D Grateful for a new friend.
4/10
Evan finally finished the 1000 puzzle we got him! Yeah! We hope that he has done enough thinking! hahah...
4/11
Tied with with a talk for this sunday and a few things to do for the RS. Yeah, the two introductory packages has arrived. We are excited to try out the supplements and the cosmetic products. Thanks Father for helping me see the many opportunities out there!
4/14-17
I don't seemed to be able to get over the feeling or an empty house. Evan is off to the Scout leadership training and I am missing him around. The house is too quiet and Johnny and I kept thinking this is what it will be like when he leaves on his mission. I am so not ready for the idea but it's getting close... I know... I hate that feeling! "Enjoy as much as I can while he is around", I said that to myself!
4/15
Grateful for the kid who gave me an extra cup for soda, more extra fries, and a regular cup of frosty when I was only claiming for a free one. He probably thinks that I am a single mom when I ordered the food with Jady. He is such a nice kid! :)
4/16
What a great day to have dim sum with Lim's family before Jady's play day. Johnny was so nice to take us out again to a buffet in the evening so that I can finish my talk. What a great husband he is! ;D
4/17
It's a relief! The talk (Handling adversity) went well and many members compliment on it. The thing I learned from this talk was to let go of my pride. There is a family that has been upset with me for over a year and I was getting tired of reaching out to them -- I simply couldn't help when people refuse to put themselves in other people's shoes. Long story short, their daughter is coming home from mission and I am excited for the family. So, I texted her and told her that I am excited for her family and will be there at the homecoming luncheon. To my surprised, she texted me back quickly! I was thrilled to get the response from her! ALL IS WELL! One step at a time.
And interestingly Natalia called me and asked if I can drive her daughter in the morning. This is even better for me since I will still be able to work in the afternoon. More blessings are coming!
4/18
Sad news of a friend who is diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I left a message to them since no one answer the phone. I am happy to send them a box for free if they want to try the product. However, it's stage 4 and that makes me a little worry. Insight: Life is too short to fuss with our own problems.... wait until you see others and you started to appreciate it more!"
Looking back on the medication I got, the trips to the neurologist, scanning, rheumatologist, dentist and acupuncturist. I hate to admit that getting old is in full force. Let's hope the supplement would help alleviate the symptoms. :)
4/9
Seriously? Snowing in April? And if this is not crazy enough! Johnny and Evan actually went fishing with a new friend (who is also from HK)! What's even more fun is that Johnny caught five trouts! Don't know how they handle the cold for so long, but I enjoyed every bite of my fish! :D Grateful for a new friend.
4/10
Evan finally finished the 1000 puzzle we got him! Yeah! We hope that he has done enough thinking! hahah...
4/11
Tied with with a talk for this sunday and a few things to do for the RS. Yeah, the two introductory packages has arrived. We are excited to try out the supplements and the cosmetic products. Thanks Father for helping me see the many opportunities out there!
4/14-17
I don't seemed to be able to get over the feeling or an empty house. Evan is off to the Scout leadership training and I am missing him around. The house is too quiet and Johnny and I kept thinking this is what it will be like when he leaves on his mission. I am so not ready for the idea but it's getting close... I know... I hate that feeling! "Enjoy as much as I can while he is around", I said that to myself!
4/15
Grateful for the kid who gave me an extra cup for soda, more extra fries, and a regular cup of frosty when I was only claiming for a free one. He probably thinks that I am a single mom when I ordered the food with Jady. He is such a nice kid! :)
4/16
What a great day to have dim sum with Lim's family before Jady's play day. Johnny was so nice to take us out again to a buffet in the evening so that I can finish my talk. What a great husband he is! ;D
4/17
It's a relief! The talk (Handling adversity) went well and many members compliment on it. The thing I learned from this talk was to let go of my pride. There is a family that has been upset with me for over a year and I was getting tired of reaching out to them -- I simply couldn't help when people refuse to put themselves in other people's shoes. Long story short, their daughter is coming home from mission and I am excited for the family. So, I texted her and told her that I am excited for her family and will be there at the homecoming luncheon. To my surprised, she texted me back quickly! I was thrilled to get the response from her! ALL IS WELL! One step at a time.
And interestingly Natalia called me and asked if I can drive her daughter in the morning. This is even better for me since I will still be able to work in the afternoon. More blessings are coming!
4/18
Sad news of a friend who is diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I left a message to them since no one answer the phone. I am happy to send them a box for free if they want to try the product. However, it's stage 4 and that makes me a little worry. Insight: Life is too short to fuss with our own problems.... wait until you see others and you started to appreciate it more!"
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
3/21 - 4/5
Week of 3/21.... It was a relaxing spring break but time to get back to work and school. Then, of course, my neighbor had decided to remove five trees from his lawn after the people came set up the power post. I was being grumpy about it because the noise of the saw and the grinding machine was so loud that had prevented me from working. I was pretty upset at that moment, but then I was able to clean up the house and attended to the things that I would never have for. Cleaning up the filing cabinet, made a trip to the bank and put the house paperwork back into the safe box. It was all good!
3/30
It's our second visit to Raquxx. Though I don't speak the language, I love these sweet sisters in my life. They worked so hard for their goal and are willing to learn and become educated. It's sad to say that people do treat us differently when we don't speak English. Some of us are highly educated before we even came to the country. Just because we speaks a different language doesn't mean we have no brains! :D Anyway, these sisters remind me of the quote, "Life is a beautiful struggle!" Struggles may come in different forms... some will bring us up and others could bring us down. I pray that I will always be able to convert the downhill path to an uphill road as I learned about life.
4/1
This is why I love my job so much as an interpreter! I didn't know that I was dealing with an patient with chemo at the beginning until we got further into the conversation. The patient had tons of questions for the Dr. particularly of the side effect of the medication. His hair started to fall off and there is swelling on his face and discoloration at his hand. The Dr. explained that could be the side effect of his treatment because his blood pressure was out of wack ever since he started chemo. The oncologist was super nice and professional in explaining each and every single one of his questions and treated him with the utmost care! I am so grateful for Dr. of this kind. It was almost an hour of visit when we finished. Towards the end of the call, the gentleman openly thanked me Dr. for being so patient with him and giving him the needed attention and advice. Then, he turned to me and said, "Thank you so much for your patient, your interpretation is well done!" My eyes swelled... What a sweet heart and big person he is! He himself is the one who is going through trial, but he was able to recognize and acknowledge the goodness around him. May I always remember his example to learn to see the good in times if difficulties!
4/3
Wonderful conference week... we ate, we played play dough, polymer clay and listened to the conference talk. Love the talk from Pre. Monsox, "May we ever choose the harder right, instead of the easier wrong!" And of course the conviction and love from Elder Hollanx and the general authority. I am grateful for the sacrifices made from all church leaders!
4/3
Didn't get much sleep last night after talking to Christine. She told me of a product out there that is very promising and marketable. I did a bit of research and couldn't sleep. Johnny were skeptical about the product but somehow I am totally convinced because one of the advisory board member who also happens to be the Dr. who helped with a church member. Think I was a little stressed out because my mind was a little scattered with the uncertainty - my current job (whether I have time to continue to interpret, my talk on 4/17 (a little overwhelmed with a two weeks deadline), my finance (coz I will be spending the money I earn towards a monthly supply), and my change of personality (worry that I would become prideful and money minded), and my ability to market the product. I don't have much doubt in the product coz there were tons of videos out there. There is just some unknown fear I had -- probably the pressure from my family (Johnny, mom and dad). They all worried that I am being scammed.
I tried to stay away from the subject yesterday and just read - books that I interested and then prepared my talk. A good quote I read last night from the Law of Medicine by Siddhartxx Mukherjxx when one of his mentor, Castle brought up a good point "It's easy make perfect decisions with perfect information. Medicine asks you to make perfect decisions with imperfect information." It is what it it -- Nothing in the medical science field is certain! Love the book so far.
4/4
Love that girl being so proud of herself. Jeannie won an honorable $50 from her entrepreneurship class. I hope it gave her a boost to her self esteem.... I mean she felt a little lost after being rejected from the ad. program and I don't think she is 100% sure what she wants to do still. Hope all is well with her.
I prayed for some guidance and peace, and I was given with that. Somehow, I was able to reconcile my feelings and fear. My thought process is like...
1) I will still be able to use the product even if I am not selling anything (there is no loss to it).
2) I told myself that I will keep my job as an interpreter.
3) I would keep a portion of my income to Johnny's parents, and my parents and to charity.
I came across this quote this morning from Pre. Eyrinx, "If you are on the right path, it will always be uphill. The Lord is anxious to lead us to the safety of higher ground"
Hope this is the right opportunity for me to soar! Check in my flashes - the one I stick on my mirror. Still praying for a confirmation though.
Saturday, March 19, 2016
3/17-19
Got a call from the Dr's office while at work that Evan was in trouble. Johnny and I were very upset with his immature behavior and we just didn't know how he would never thought of the consequences of his action? We took away his phone and grounded him from the trip to NC. I was really excited about this trip and didn't want to cancel it, but in the end I chose to stay behind and helped him live with the consequences.
On the flip side, I felt good that I was able to share my thoughts, worries and concerns with Jeannie besides Johnny and mom. She has grown so much in the past two years and had been able to inspire me with insights on how to deal with Evan at times. She gave me some suggestion for him -- researching on the consequences that he might be facing while breaking the law for now and in the future. Needless to say, he would be doing a lot of research this spring break! Johnny and I also thought of getting him a 1000 puzzle pieces so that he could have some alone time to sit and think things through.
I was heartbroken by Evan's choices. The other evening as I was doing the dishes.... I thought of him and why he has to constantly test the limit. I felt the presence of Grandpa Lai, and this thought came to my mind, "It's okay that he is in trouble now when he is young (with a flashback of my brother) so that he would stay away from it when he is older." I had no words in describing the feeling - but it's beyond comfortable and reassuring.
Angels are real!
Thursday, March 17, 2016
3/16
Feeling blessed that I was able to come home last night to get some comfort from hubby. It's an absolutely stressful night hosting the RS dinner. If we didn't have to customize 45 orders with 26 random items, it would have been more fun for me or any of us who served both the games and in the kitchen. I didn't mind the preparation part of it, but I didn't want to get overwhelm on the day of the activity. There was not much time for the workers to associate with the other sisters let alone the time to sit down and eat. There were a few things that annoy me other than the crazy, busy process in the kitchen. I loved my committee and I didn't like how one of the leaders was being treated! It was around 8pm when we finished serving. The workers had been helping since 6:30pm and we were running late for the games. I was disgusted when the person who yelled, "Go get xxx, she needs to get her butt in here to help!" or "No! You can't eat, you need to run the game!" I don't see love, and I am disgusted with the thought that the show is more important than an individual.
I was also upset with the fact that some people were very careless or senseless of other's properties. I made it clear at the beginning that I needed my chopsticks back -- and S who made the announcement did not get the message across. I did purposely make her feel bad to be quite honest since I need her to know that people actually rely on her. So, she said she would dig out from the trash. I walked away from the scene and started doing the dishes in the kitchen. Then, the mom of (D) came in with a frown and asked me in her strict face (no smile) and in a confrontational voice, "Why do we need to keep the chopsticks? And why do we need to dig them out from the trash?" I was at rage with her senseless comment but managed to stay calm. Thank Lord! Then, I looked her in the eyes and responded, "Because I bought them and they are for my family!" She did come back a second time to apologize that whoever made the announcement didn't handle it right. I said to her, "It's alright!" Those chopsticks are cheap and didn't worth much. I was more upset of people being irresponsible, and not being able to put themselves in someone else's shoe. I am sure they would be mad too if I borrowed the utensils or anything from them and "accidentally" throw them away.
Anyway, I learned my lesson last night! Keep things simple, stay focus on what matter the most, be careful, sensible and be nice and kind to others.
I was also upset with the fact that some people were very careless or senseless of other's properties. I made it clear at the beginning that I needed my chopsticks back -- and S who made the announcement did not get the message across. I did purposely make her feel bad to be quite honest since I need her to know that people actually rely on her. So, she said she would dig out from the trash. I walked away from the scene and started doing the dishes in the kitchen. Then, the mom of (D) came in with a frown and asked me in her strict face (no smile) and in a confrontational voice, "Why do we need to keep the chopsticks? And why do we need to dig them out from the trash?" I was at rage with her senseless comment but managed to stay calm. Thank Lord! Then, I looked her in the eyes and responded, "Because I bought them and they are for my family!" She did come back a second time to apologize that whoever made the announcement didn't handle it right. I said to her, "It's alright!" Those chopsticks are cheap and didn't worth much. I was more upset of people being irresponsible, and not being able to put themselves in someone else's shoe. I am sure they would be mad too if I borrowed the utensils or anything from them and "accidentally" throw them away.
Anyway, I learned my lesson last night! Keep things simple, stay focus on what matter the most, be careful, sensible and be nice and kind to others.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
3/1-3/9
3/1 (Tue)
The weather was nice so the driving to NJ for pick up was a breeze. It's so nice to have Johnny back and have someone to talk to. Jady of course mourned over not being able to sleep with me and I missed that part of it too. :) I am so happy that Johnny had a wonderful time visiting friends and family and having a celebration of his grandpa's life. I don't like to call it a funeral - it's a celebration of life especially he is 97. Being home by myself with the kids is not a easy job, and I am grateful for the experience - think I am more sympathetic towards single parent now.
3/2 - 3/5 (Wed thru Sat)
Spending quite a bit of time preparing my Sunday lesson on "Thriving to live in the gospel, keeping a balance while we struggle to jugxxxx." I have a lot of thoughts on the issue since it hit hard on my own personal life. As I was doing the research on the topics, I came across a few article that I really enjoy reading from the church website. What a blessing it is to be a member of the church and be lead by inspired leaders - I can basically find answer to anything about life from the articles written by them.
Evan took his first SAT on Sat (3/5). He was pretty confident about the test and felt strong of getting similar score as the practice test. We shall see.
3/6 - 3/9 (Sun - Wed)
Somehow, I wasn't as worry about the lesson as I did in the past. I can feel that someone (an angel/spirit) would help me with the work, and it's probably the Lord's way to calm me down from being nervous. <3 div="">
3/7 (Mon)
The filling at the back of my molar came off and I called the dentist for help. Fortunately, she was able to fit me in at 11:00 while I called as I was running my errands that morning in Phoenixville. I was decided to get some groceries and flowers for a few sisters at the store there and was blown by the how the schedule works perfectly between my errands and the appointment. Not only that -- I was able to deliver a plant to Gladys unknowingly that she was admitted to the hospital the Sat before. I then made my run in Chesterbrook and Devon. I saw Mary's car outside and the old in the house but she wouldn't come down. I waited for a bit and later found out that she was actually in the shower. She was still kind of wiped out by the family issues (custody battle with her ex, parents separation, mom's Dr. appointment and surgery, and the potential loss of her job while dealing with a difficult brother). Things were so bad for her and how I wish and pray that she has a break in between. Yet, she is a strong woman and she knows where she should be and I truly think Heidi, her best friend has been a great blessing to her! I love these two women!
The time was so precise and perfectly scheduled for the following visit with Kim Birxxx. No one has success in getting into her door according to many sisters... but the Lord works in miracle! I parked my car at the entrance of her driveway and walked out with the plant and behold, she was driving back to the house from a work out. Our exchange was short since she would have to leave the house and dropped off something to her son right away. All I want from the visit was to pass the message to her that someone miss her and that she wasn't forgotten. That's all I was instructed by Heavenly Father.
I felt terrific about the adventurous day and I am at awe of how intricate and precise the Lord has everything planned and scheduled. My heart was not there at the beginning of the day because I am a workaholic! I love my job and I just wanted to stay home and work when they sent me the email of urgent needs for interpreter. I told myself that I would just leave the plant outside at the sister's house... but then a thought came to my mind - what's the point of my visit if I don't get to talk to the sisters? I was certain that I had no clue what to say but I was going to try and be done as soon as I could so that I can get back to work. My attitude was pretty bad.. see how I am laughing at myself... :)
Thinking back now, I am further convinced that worrying about the unexpected would do us no good.
1) They limit our faith -- especially as we try to gain control of the situation on our own, we fail to exercise our faith to ask the Lord for guidance.
2) Make us more anxious, worrisome and less productive - I have seen the added stress on myself and others when going through crisis. We can be nuts going in all directions.
3) We can be blinded to recognize the real purpose or learning lesson behind the scene.
I probably need to revisit this journal entry in the future since my faith is still work in progress! :D
Sunday, February 28, 2016
2/23-2/28
2/23 (Tue)
Grateful for Mike Reyx and Amanda who stopped by to check on us. They were so sweet to show up at our door and ask if we need anything! We are so blessed to have such great home teacher -- and did I mention that they are inactive? Love this family!
Super nervous and worried about Jeannie who has been sick for over a week now! Thank goodness for a great insurance company and plan, so we be able to get her to see the Dr. right away in Utah.
2/24 (Wed)
That kid knows how to put a smile on your face when she got us a matching shirt for the summer so that we can take family picture with it - and when she was still sick!
Jady had half day of school today. I took her to Walmarx and CVx to check on the braces for my neck, elbow and lower back. As I sat there in my office this morning, I felt really bad about my pain coz I could not imagine myself in this condition for the rest of my life. I need something quick to fix my problem. I have a habit of praying everyday before I start working - and that I'd be able to use my skills to make someone's life easier. As I was sitting at the table, I came across the human anatomy visual dictionary and saw where the nerve goes in our body. My first thought was, "Wow, those Chinese Dr. are so smart! How could they (5000 years ago) know all the pressure points and nerves located in our body?" Then, somehow I was reminded of the QiKunx class I took a few years back.
My thinking was - my position at work made my muscle stiff because most of the time I had my head down writing notes with the shoulder and back slouched forward. When I was taking the QiKunx class, we would start our session with a 15 mins. warm up. That warm up involved patting the whole body from head to toe or in another word, shaking out the bad "chi". "Waking up" the organs and nervous system allowed the good "chi" flowing in and to eventually heal our body. I remember mom did that warm up exercise when she was here and Dad also told me where to pat for optimal result to increase the energy/blood flow in the body. Everything started to make sense all of a sudden! I tried that today in between work and it helps relax my muscle. Not only that, I found myself in a much better spirit as well when I talked to the client.
Took the kids to mutual and met with the Enrichment Committex.... Get a lot more done and plan, so it was good.
2/25 (Thur)
Work for an hour or so and then off to pick up Jady (another half day). We drove to the hospital on time to get an EMG done and I told myself that I would never repeat that test again. They basically shocked me with electric current and I got bruises from the needles - not just poking at one spot but the peripheral. I am pretty determined that I would take control of my health from now on! Had a fight with Evan... I was mad and disappointed because he made no time and effort to listen to my problems. I went to bad pretty upset.
2/27 (Fri)
I expressed my feeling to Evan in the morning and he came home and apologized for him not being there for me when I needed him. I pray that he would remember this lesson and never repeat the same mistake again whether it's to his wife or his children -- never send your loved ones away when they came to you with their problems. That's the biggest mistake one would ever made!
Busy revising the retreat flyer. I am so glad that all is done! ;) Mom kind of worries me - she has been having a couple of nose bleeding episodes. I hope and pray that her nose was dry and the membrane was thin, and at worst having the disorder as Jady and nothing else. Thank goodness to the wonderful orthopedics she has who referred her to see a ENT Dr. in 10 days. We were amazed at how quickly they have the appointment set up.
2/28(Sat)
Super busy and tiring... Woke up at 7, shower and then drove to downtown philly. It was about 9:15 when I got there, so I tried to look for a 3 hour parking spot because my appointment was from 10-noon. Being early doesn't help since most of these parking spots has a time limit of 2 hours if not 1 hour. I was pretty frustrated going in circles (with the one way) traffic rules and became desperate when it's getting close to my appointment time. So I drove to two garage places within a mile and they both asked me for $24 flat! What? I was only parking for a little over 2 hours so I just didn't feel like paying them that much. This is wrong! I continued my drive and it was closed to 10:02. The car to my left pulled out from the parking lot and there's my 2 hour spot. It wasn't only a 2 hour spot, it was actually a pretty big spot for me who don't know how to parallel park. What's more? It was situated diagonally to my destination acrossed the park. I ran as fast as I could and was almost 15 mins. late to my appointment. Thank goodness that the directors were super understanding. They even allowed me to leave as soon as we were done. That morning prayer was definitely working!
Came home tired and waited for the ladies to come help made the RS invites. We finished around 4:45 and then gave Evan a ride to the store. Think I might have passed out after I came home. He left to a party with his friends and I woke up and took Jady to Wendys and hang out at Barns N noblx for a mother daughter date before picking up Evan at 9:30pm. It was almost 10:40 by the time we came home. The day was long and I couldn't wait to have Johnny home.
2/29 (Sun)
It was a great sacrament meeting as I looked around and spot a few act of kindness from the members.
1) Chip noticed the decons didn't pass the trays in order, so he asked the lady in front to pass it onto him and fixed the problem.
2) Wendy went to ask a semi active member to sit by her family.
3) Heidi's youngest son stroked her hair back in position after seeing the mess.
4) Sister Greenwax wrote me a note and thank me for giving her hug when she cried last week.
No wonder people said, "There is always someone watching, so be good!"
Had a wonderful time visiting Gloria. She is absolutely a great lady. I love chatting with older women. They are so fun to be with. Two more days and Johnny will be home...
Time to prepare the lesson for next week!
Grateful for Mike Reyx and Amanda who stopped by to check on us. They were so sweet to show up at our door and ask if we need anything! We are so blessed to have such great home teacher -- and did I mention that they are inactive? Love this family!
Super nervous and worried about Jeannie who has been sick for over a week now! Thank goodness for a great insurance company and plan, so we be able to get her to see the Dr. right away in Utah.
2/24 (Wed)
That kid knows how to put a smile on your face when she got us a matching shirt for the summer so that we can take family picture with it - and when she was still sick!
Jady had half day of school today. I took her to Walmarx and CVx to check on the braces for my neck, elbow and lower back. As I sat there in my office this morning, I felt really bad about my pain coz I could not imagine myself in this condition for the rest of my life. I need something quick to fix my problem. I have a habit of praying everyday before I start working - and that I'd be able to use my skills to make someone's life easier. As I was sitting at the table, I came across the human anatomy visual dictionary and saw where the nerve goes in our body. My first thought was, "Wow, those Chinese Dr. are so smart! How could they (5000 years ago) know all the pressure points and nerves located in our body?" Then, somehow I was reminded of the QiKunx class I took a few years back.
My thinking was - my position at work made my muscle stiff because most of the time I had my head down writing notes with the shoulder and back slouched forward. When I was taking the QiKunx class, we would start our session with a 15 mins. warm up. That warm up involved patting the whole body from head to toe or in another word, shaking out the bad "chi". "Waking up" the organs and nervous system allowed the good "chi" flowing in and to eventually heal our body. I remember mom did that warm up exercise when she was here and Dad also told me where to pat for optimal result to increase the energy/blood flow in the body. Everything started to make sense all of a sudden! I tried that today in between work and it helps relax my muscle. Not only that, I found myself in a much better spirit as well when I talked to the client.
Took the kids to mutual and met with the Enrichment Committex.... Get a lot more done and plan, so it was good.
2/25 (Thur)
Work for an hour or so and then off to pick up Jady (another half day). We drove to the hospital on time to get an EMG done and I told myself that I would never repeat that test again. They basically shocked me with electric current and I got bruises from the needles - not just poking at one spot but the peripheral. I am pretty determined that I would take control of my health from now on! Had a fight with Evan... I was mad and disappointed because he made no time and effort to listen to my problems. I went to bad pretty upset.
2/27 (Fri)
I expressed my feeling to Evan in the morning and he came home and apologized for him not being there for me when I needed him. I pray that he would remember this lesson and never repeat the same mistake again whether it's to his wife or his children -- never send your loved ones away when they came to you with their problems. That's the biggest mistake one would ever made!
Busy revising the retreat flyer. I am so glad that all is done! ;) Mom kind of worries me - she has been having a couple of nose bleeding episodes. I hope and pray that her nose was dry and the membrane was thin, and at worst having the disorder as Jady and nothing else. Thank goodness to the wonderful orthopedics she has who referred her to see a ENT Dr. in 10 days. We were amazed at how quickly they have the appointment set up.
2/28(Sat)
Super busy and tiring... Woke up at 7, shower and then drove to downtown philly. It was about 9:15 when I got there, so I tried to look for a 3 hour parking spot because my appointment was from 10-noon. Being early doesn't help since most of these parking spots has a time limit of 2 hours if not 1 hour. I was pretty frustrated going in circles (with the one way) traffic rules and became desperate when it's getting close to my appointment time. So I drove to two garage places within a mile and they both asked me for $24 flat! What? I was only parking for a little over 2 hours so I just didn't feel like paying them that much. This is wrong! I continued my drive and it was closed to 10:02. The car to my left pulled out from the parking lot and there's my 2 hour spot. It wasn't only a 2 hour spot, it was actually a pretty big spot for me who don't know how to parallel park. What's more? It was situated diagonally to my destination acrossed the park. I ran as fast as I could and was almost 15 mins. late to my appointment. Thank goodness that the directors were super understanding. They even allowed me to leave as soon as we were done. That morning prayer was definitely working!
Came home tired and waited for the ladies to come help made the RS invites. We finished around 4:45 and then gave Evan a ride to the store. Think I might have passed out after I came home. He left to a party with his friends and I woke up and took Jady to Wendys and hang out at Barns N noblx for a mother daughter date before picking up Evan at 9:30pm. It was almost 10:40 by the time we came home. The day was long and I couldn't wait to have Johnny home.
2/29 (Sun)
It was a great sacrament meeting as I looked around and spot a few act of kindness from the members.
1) Chip noticed the decons didn't pass the trays in order, so he asked the lady in front to pass it onto him and fixed the problem.
2) Wendy went to ask a semi active member to sit by her family.
3) Heidi's youngest son stroked her hair back in position after seeing the mess.
4) Sister Greenwax wrote me a note and thank me for giving her hug when she cried last week.
No wonder people said, "There is always someone watching, so be good!"
Had a wonderful time visiting Gloria. She is absolutely a great lady. I love chatting with older women. They are so fun to be with. Two more days and Johnny will be home...
Time to prepare the lesson for next week!
Monday, February 22, 2016
2/22 Be the kind, random stranger!
2/22
Work is super busy today and I am so glad to have a variety of calls now that I am more familiar with the system and protocol. Love every single minute of my job! Got an email today about two positions: working as an insurance underwriter or a medical record translator. I did express my interest in both jobs, so we shall see!
Johnny got a bunch of stuff for us in HK, so glad that he is still having fun visiting friends and family. Evan is anxiously waiting to get over with his debate - poor kid! Jady is working hard on not picking her scab so that she can paint her nails. Haha... My sweetheart is sick with a running nose and cough. Now that I get to hear so many calls from the Dr., I felt like I sounded one too when I asked her all those questions related to her symptoms. :D Pray that she will feel better tomorrow!
It was fun talking to a grandpa at the dental office today. We started chatting while watching the news and we exchanged thoughts and opinions on gun control. Then we talked about the different Drs in the office and what kind of procedures and bad experiences we had with our appointments. As he, his wife and grand daughter were about to leave, the nurse called on my name, and that grandpa at check out waved bye and said, "Good luck with your visit, Pauline!" That statement just made my day.
Be kind -- anyway, any time, any day!
2/21
2/22 (Sun)
Church was great! I love President Dutchworxx's talk as always! He is such an honest, down to earth leader that everyone loves. Definitely need to spend some alone time on Sunday contemplating, nourishing the soul. My goal is to move the visiting teachings appointment to the weekdays so that I can get some spiritual cleaning done. Now that I start working, I see how much rest and peace I yearn for on my Sabbath.
Our presidency met with the stake YW, Primary and RS presidents after the sacrament meeting. My mind was wondering around somewhere else at the beginning of the meeting. I remember thinking to myself - "I seriously don't have much to offer... I don't want to be in charge of people... I am pretty boring... so not creative, and not fun at all... why put me in that position?" As I was talking to myself, somehow I picked up on the note from the stake for a suggestion to meet with the other auxiliary leaders together for insight and inspiration for the ward members. I can feel her love, concern and desire as Amanda Haxx bear her testimony on the subject.
I am sure the stake is aware of the division... and it's been a concern to me as well that the sisters, youth and members of our ward are struggling with unity. Life outside the church is already so challenging, we as sisters need to stick together to stand firm in the gospel and help our kids to stay in the church. When Amanda closed with the remark, "Live up to your covenant!" That specific moment, I received a confirmation and a change of heart - This is exactly why I need to stay. I am needed to be here for the sisters in the ward. My struggle were kept in minimal as soon as I had that experience. I see myself murmur less!
After church, I came home fix lunch for the kids and then rushed out to visiting teaching. So grateful to have an awesome, spiritual companion, Gina! She has only been in the state for three years but her English has improved so much! She was an accountant and her husband has his own business before they moved to the state. Life has changed a lot for the family -- less desirable for the parents (working two, three jobs to meet ends need) and yet probably the best living for the children. I don't know if I have the courage to do what they do. Bless the hearts to those who struggle.
Visiting Michelle (Met Jacob, the kid who struggled with drugs, has the sweetest temperament. I hope he will seek help and turnaround.) and Raquel was a delight... came home around 4:45... asked Evan to catch a ride to get to the Bishop's house for BYCBYxx. I did the dishes in between and no soon after I left to the presidency meeting.
Church was great! I love President Dutchworxx's talk as always! He is such an honest, down to earth leader that everyone loves. Definitely need to spend some alone time on Sunday contemplating, nourishing the soul. My goal is to move the visiting teachings appointment to the weekdays so that I can get some spiritual cleaning done. Now that I start working, I see how much rest and peace I yearn for on my Sabbath.
Our presidency met with the stake YW, Primary and RS presidents after the sacrament meeting. My mind was wondering around somewhere else at the beginning of the meeting. I remember thinking to myself - "I seriously don't have much to offer... I don't want to be in charge of people... I am pretty boring... so not creative, and not fun at all... why put me in that position?" As I was talking to myself, somehow I picked up on the note from the stake for a suggestion to meet with the other auxiliary leaders together for insight and inspiration for the ward members. I can feel her love, concern and desire as Amanda Haxx bear her testimony on the subject.
I am sure the stake is aware of the division... and it's been a concern to me as well that the sisters, youth and members of our ward are struggling with unity. Life outside the church is already so challenging, we as sisters need to stick together to stand firm in the gospel and help our kids to stay in the church. When Amanda closed with the remark, "Live up to your covenant!" That specific moment, I received a confirmation and a change of heart - This is exactly why I need to stay. I am needed to be here for the sisters in the ward. My struggle were kept in minimal as soon as I had that experience. I see myself murmur less!
After church, I came home fix lunch for the kids and then rushed out to visiting teaching. So grateful to have an awesome, spiritual companion, Gina! She has only been in the state for three years but her English has improved so much! She was an accountant and her husband has his own business before they moved to the state. Life has changed a lot for the family -- less desirable for the parents (working two, three jobs to meet ends need) and yet probably the best living for the children. I don't know if I have the courage to do what they do. Bless the hearts to those who struggle.
Visiting Michelle (Met Jacob, the kid who struggled with drugs, has the sweetest temperament. I hope he will seek help and turnaround.) and Raquel was a delight... came home around 4:45... asked Evan to catch a ride to get to the Bishop's house for BYCBYxx. I did the dishes in between and no soon after I left to the presidency meeting.
Saturday, February 20, 2016
2/16-20
2/16 (Tue)
Grateful to realize how my life was protected by a loving Father! I was really upset with the job was assigned to a different interpreter because I didn't response on time. But then on Tue after dropping off Jady at 10:20 (two hour delay) and walking home on the slushy road, I suddenly realized how blessed I was to not being able to get the assignment. There is no way that I would be able to drive there with the icy condition or found someone to take Jady to school. No one except the Father knew what is the best for His children. I hope I will always remember this lesson... Delay my complaint, learn to be patient and have faith that the Lord will give us the Best!!! I mean the BEST!!!!
Went to visit and delivered the blankets to Lila and Gladys. These two ladies has gone through a lot of hardship in their lives (one got married 4 times and constantly in and out of the hospital, and the other became a widow when she was young and had children and grand children in drugs and all sorts of trouble.) I admired how they were able to deal with their circumstances with humor. They always managed to make me laugh! We need a little humor when life gives us a lemon!
2/17 (Wed)
I have the best job in the world! I love every single minute of it -- some clients are very sweet and appreciate my help. I got a sense of how to deal with them and hopefully be able to continue to improve my skills and help as long as I live. Kids went to wed activity and I was able to get some fruits while they were at the church. We read our scripture and said a prayer before we left. We also FaceTime dad after we came home from mutual. Life is terrific!
2/18 (Thur)
Work was a little slow but hey I was in my robe all day! Can't complaint! I had a great chatting session with my oldest as well since we were trying to figure out a design to improve the food warming process for the microwave. It was fun! I stopped working at 3 and went to pick up Jady since she has violin lesson. Came home and worked for another hour while Jady was having snack and enjoying her TV time. That's how flexible my job is and I love it! Evan has been diligent working on a debate for his Govt. class. I am so proud to see how much work he has put into this project! Grateful for the heavy rain that melted a bit of the snow off our lawn.
2/19 (Fri)
Parkinson disease - The disease has kept an old man (LEP) from standing, walking, bathing, going to the bathroom -- and probably, eventually swallowing. This poor gentleman went to the emergency room by himself because he was chocking and he is now confined to a wheelchair and is not able to get to places because his legs are giving up on him. When the nurse asked if he is depressed, his response was, "Some days I just wanted to end my own life." I so wanted to tell him that I love him, please don't give up, but I can't with my job. My heart sank when I interpret these kind of calls. Pray that he will get the home care service soon, and to have someone to help relive his struggle. Hope the medication will keep his disease at bay. I am so thankful for a healthy body!
2/20 (Sat)
Long day -- woke up and made lunch for the kids. Went to pick up Joan and attended Brandi's baby shower. Came home and eat a little bit with the kids and headed to the library with Jady before cutting the Urbinx girls' hair. They love their new look. :D Took an hour nap and dropped off Jady at Crystal's birthday. Evan and I went to dinner at Popeyx and picked up two pair of jeans from Primmarx. The party was still on when we got there and so we stayed until the end of it. It was a great party and I love seeing the people in the house! I felt like some neighbors that Maria invited doesn't have family. Bless this friend who has a heart of gold!
Grateful to realize how my life was protected by a loving Father! I was really upset with the job was assigned to a different interpreter because I didn't response on time. But then on Tue after dropping off Jady at 10:20 (two hour delay) and walking home on the slushy road, I suddenly realized how blessed I was to not being able to get the assignment. There is no way that I would be able to drive there with the icy condition or found someone to take Jady to school. No one except the Father knew what is the best for His children. I hope I will always remember this lesson... Delay my complaint, learn to be patient and have faith that the Lord will give us the Best!!! I mean the BEST!!!!
Went to visit and delivered the blankets to Lila and Gladys. These two ladies has gone through a lot of hardship in their lives (one got married 4 times and constantly in and out of the hospital, and the other became a widow when she was young and had children and grand children in drugs and all sorts of trouble.) I admired how they were able to deal with their circumstances with humor. They always managed to make me laugh! We need a little humor when life gives us a lemon!
2/17 (Wed)
I have the best job in the world! I love every single minute of it -- some clients are very sweet and appreciate my help. I got a sense of how to deal with them and hopefully be able to continue to improve my skills and help as long as I live. Kids went to wed activity and I was able to get some fruits while they were at the church. We read our scripture and said a prayer before we left. We also FaceTime dad after we came home from mutual. Life is terrific!
2/18 (Thur)
Work was a little slow but hey I was in my robe all day! Can't complaint! I had a great chatting session with my oldest as well since we were trying to figure out a design to improve the food warming process for the microwave. It was fun! I stopped working at 3 and went to pick up Jady since she has violin lesson. Came home and worked for another hour while Jady was having snack and enjoying her TV time. That's how flexible my job is and I love it! Evan has been diligent working on a debate for his Govt. class. I am so proud to see how much work he has put into this project! Grateful for the heavy rain that melted a bit of the snow off our lawn.
2/19 (Fri)
Parkinson disease - The disease has kept an old man (LEP) from standing, walking, bathing, going to the bathroom -- and probably, eventually swallowing. This poor gentleman went to the emergency room by himself because he was chocking and he is now confined to a wheelchair and is not able to get to places because his legs are giving up on him. When the nurse asked if he is depressed, his response was, "Some days I just wanted to end my own life." I so wanted to tell him that I love him, please don't give up, but I can't with my job. My heart sank when I interpret these kind of calls. Pray that he will get the home care service soon, and to have someone to help relive his struggle. Hope the medication will keep his disease at bay. I am so thankful for a healthy body!
2/20 (Sat)
Long day -- woke up and made lunch for the kids. Went to pick up Joan and attended Brandi's baby shower. Came home and eat a little bit with the kids and headed to the library with Jady before cutting the Urbinx girls' hair. They love their new look. :D Took an hour nap and dropped off Jady at Crystal's birthday. Evan and I went to dinner at Popeyx and picked up two pair of jeans from Primmarx. The party was still on when we got there and so we stayed until the end of it. It was a great party and I love seeing the people in the house! I felt like some neighbors that Maria invited doesn't have family. Bless this friend who has a heart of gold!
Monday, February 15, 2016
2/8 - 2/16
2/8 - 2/12
It's a relaxing week and a great start of the Chinese New Year! Don't remember exactly what I did except a lot of calling, texting to friends and families - especially to my brother! I seriously think making food is not my favorite thing to do. Yet, I did it an authentic Chinese dish anyway - the vegan dish on the first day of the Chinese New Year. Johnny and I love it -- probably not the kids though. Talked to Johnny the other day that we should just go out and celebrate instead of cooking at home. Haha...
Just love that Jeannie actually remembers to greet us on the New Year's day! She is so grown up! :)
2/9-10
It was so good to visit with Inga. She is a miracle... pray that her cancer stay under control. I always think her positive outlook on life has contributed much of the healing during the process.
Really enjoy reading this book - The four things that matter most!
Relationship is an abstract subject. It takes tons of work to maintain a good one. It can produce love, hatred, heartache and joy! It stretches our patient, and open up our minds to recognize our true self. I don't think I have said these enough, but I am going to give it a try:
Please forgive me.
I forgive you.
Thank you.
I love you.
2/11
Work resumed and the call volume was pretty stable. I love the fact that I am able to help those who are in need and most importantly be more sympathetic and understanding with others circumstances. I can understand the frustration of the middle age woman for her concern with both of her eyes and the struggle to go back to work to make ends meet. I empathized with the por por who struggled to take care of her husband who suffered from depression, lung cancer, the many falls and stitches on his head. Or the guy who's just lost his mom and wanted to find out if there is enough money in the bank. I found myself praying for a better turn out for these individuals after I hang up with them even though we've never met each other. I love people -- I simply do! Bet that's the kind of force that drives me to be the BEST interpreter! So grateful to be able to have a meaningful job!
2/12
Love is when you only want the BEST or the HAPPIEST life for the people you love. Don't know why I need to reserve the money in my HK bank...I think I will find out one of these days. Went to the bank and withdraw my pocket money to Johnny as a Valentines' day gift. Oh well, it's just money! I know it is not a fun trip for him but I also hope that he can make the best, and the most memorable of it. :)
2/13
We went out to Panasix to lunch before Johnny leaves to Hong Kong. It's a good call but also too cold for me to the supermarket. The kids were thrilled that I refuse to get veggie! What a wishful thinking! haha... they shall see.
2/14
Love Ashley's talk! What a big difference she has made in the lives of many. Love this girl!!! She is not as shy as she used to but she is definitely more comfortable speaking and hugging people. Love seeing and visiting with her family!!!
Grateful for Mama Garcia's love for me -- She gave me a candy bar and a pack of gums in a tapped ziplog bag. My eyes get teary when I saw what she did! She just wanted to make sure that I receive all her blessings/goodies she gave me. She is so pure and genuine... did I mention that she is 90+ years old?
Called Michelle to wish her a Happy Valentine's Day... and she was all concerned about my driving back to PA from NJ (Because of the possible snow storm and the icy rain according to the news). After these many years of visit, I am starting to know how much she loves me and how much she means to me. Though she is not an active member of the church, but she showed me the Christ like love in her. <3 div="" her="" much="" nbsp="" so="">
You know this friend is a keeper when she said, "Give me a call when you are home so that I know you have a safe drive back from New Jersey!" - True LOVE doesn't cost you anything... Simply show that you care!
Had a fantastic time facetiming my child. How I wish she is close by so that we can talk more often. She is now thinking about going to law school or being a psychiatrist! I feel like I hardly ask her about school... not that I don't care, but I just want to make sure her happiness comes first. Of course, I want her to be able get a job and sustain herself, but I also feel that life is not just about making money. I am so grateful for who she is today. She is a happy, confident, loving, hardworking, responsible adult! I am happy that she has some awesome friends and roommates that she enjoys hanging out with. Dad will miss her for the next two weeks but thank goodness that we have cell phone nowadays to keep us all in a loop.
2/15
Grateful that there is no delay on Johnny's flight and that we drove home safely; even though it took us 3 hours to drive home. I suddenly had a glimpse of what a single mother likes (still not even close to the real situation). But then a thought came to my mind -- partner with the Lord is a must in these type of circumstances. I can't do it alone, and I also that the Lord will not fail me if I try my best to do my part! Surprisingly, we had a great conversation at FHE and scripture study.
Sunday, February 7, 2016
1/29-2/5
1/29 (Fri)
I drove all the way almost to NJ to pick up the harp. It was beautiful... now if I only have time to learn how to play! LOL!!!
I felt really good on my first day at work -- just realize how important my role is to help break the barrier between two parties who speak a different language. My focus was pretty bad if the client gave me long segments. I had enough sleep the night before, I'd be okay. Grateful for the opportunity to serve in a different setting.
Talked to Farrinx for a few hours and it's always fun to catch up with her. We are pretty much the same kind of people with the same personality.
1/30 (Sat)
Enjoy a lovely day with the family watching Evan played at the basketball game, and then a trip to downtown for some Vietnamese food.
1/31 (Sun)
A little frustrated at church - mainly the issue of dealing with people. I seriously don't think we need to block a few hours on a sat for more rehearsal, and I can't really function the last minute when someone didn't show up to do their job. What a blessing it is to have a husband with good listening ears!
Talking to Jeannie was the highlight of my day! Johnny and her sorted out the plan for her moving, and decision for her major. She has been cooking a lot more at home, and is trying to stay ahead of the game to finish her homework early. Somehow, I still don't get why she needs to work on her homework on Sunday though. Funny kid! I truly think that she is more attentive and thoughtful about us. She responds quickly to us when we text her. We had a good time chatting and we tried to help her decide on what to do for her entrepreneur class! I hope she felt loved by our genuine support -- probably too much support. Haha
2/1 (Mon)
Busy day to pay off rent, mortgages and bills. Read the ensign message Johnny suggested and had a thought to review of my attitude towards my calling. The voice inside saying, "Are you going to say no if the Lord ask you to serve?" My answer was: Of course not! Then a re-affirming statement came through my head, "The Lord needs you there!" May be I will struggle less after this! :D No doubt that HE loves me! Had some really good laugh at work today. I love this job for every call, every different and challenging!
2/2 (Tue)
Nice day to catch up and celebrate Mary's birthday. I love the decor, the business idea and the coziness of the place. Would have been a perfect day if she didn't get a ticket.
2/3 (Wed)
Great meeting with the RS presidency. I feel like we are getting more united each time we meet. Great ladies to work with. Bless the heart of Maria -- pray that she is able to discern the motive of the "biological" father. Johnny was in NJ for a conference when he texted me that his grandpa was in a critical condition. While driving the kids home after the mutual activity, a few flashes came to my mind -- I saw Johnny's grandma and grandpa (young pictures of them in black and white... grandma probably in her 30s wearing a Chinese gown with a happy smile, and grandpa probably in his 30s as well, in his 4/6 partition hair style. He was in a light grey suit, wearing a tie and white shirt.) I had a feeling that they were reunited!
2/4 (Thur)
Thur morning, I found some poop on the main entrance floor. Jady and I freaked out as we heard the bird flying in our house. No one knows how long it's been with us, where and how it gets inside the house. I opened the door and tried to guide the bird outside, but then I heard a few noise at the window and saw the bird tried to crash through the window. I finally opened up the window for the bird and when I no longer hear the noise, I thought it was gone and close the window. But then, Jady screamed again and this time I had a up close eye contact with the bird as it was standing on top of the lamp shade. It was not the most colorful bird, brownish, greyish color, but I had this feeling that we both understand each other -- somehow! Then, I opened the door again and it left before I grabbed my phone to take a picture. I so wished I had a picture taken! This happened on the same day when grandpa was taken to the hospital by the helicopter.
Had a nice visit with Mary G. I just don't know how much some people can take on. Bless her heart with all the trials that she had and is having. Why can't she get a break? I wondered in my head...
Enrichment night went well! It was awesome to see the old and young sisters working together on the blankets. I honestly believe that service project do the magic for this activity!!!
2/5 (Fri)
Grandpa passed away today. Johnny was sad for a little bit and he is going to fly home for the funeral. As I thought back, we should have called or sent grandpa a picture before he passed on so that he knows that we were thinking of him and that we love him.
Never delay the moment to act on any special prompting!
2/6 (Sat)
Evan finally enjoy the championship title in the stake Ping Pong tournament!! He was so proud of himself this round! His team also made the 1st runner up at the stake basketball game. The fun hasn't stopped as he and his friends went to a car show (Sister A was a super nice lady who always that them to places!), then some szechun food and a party! These kids had so much energy!
You know how much your son loves you and remembers you when he packed the chili pepper home after dinner. Silly kid! :D
Super busy day with all the cleaning and preparation for the Chinese New Year and the coming of Jermenixxx family for the ice cream social. We had a great time with them. I love this sweet family and I wish all these young families be able to form a support group. This generation as well as the youth in the church makes me worry. I wondered what it takes to make them united. It's so crucial to hang onto one another for support or soon we will be losing these kids to the outside world. We can't afford to lose them!
2/7 (Sun)
Great testimony meeting!! Who would think of the Mongolian sister who traveled to the state, not knowing the language, but wanted to learn the gospel and get baptized? And here he is - Ab, who came back from his mission a year ago, who speaks fluent Mongolian and is ready to teach this special soul.
I constantly chase after dreams, goals, career and plans for the future. I am power driven by desire -- but all of a sudden I realized today that these plans are very fragile because the Lord is in control of every single details in our lives! He sees the big picture, he knows our personality, and he will give us what we want when the time is right. It doesn't mean that we just sit there and wait for it to happen, but instead, we can leave it to the Lord and trust that he will give us the best, and the things that what we ask for at the right time and in the right place. It's just that simple!
Love Judy's insight regarding journal writing -- she said, "Record your journal even if it's only one sentence a day -- your children will love you!"
I told you she is a very wise friend!
I drove all the way almost to NJ to pick up the harp. It was beautiful... now if I only have time to learn how to play! LOL!!!
I felt really good on my first day at work -- just realize how important my role is to help break the barrier between two parties who speak a different language. My focus was pretty bad if the client gave me long segments. I had enough sleep the night before, I'd be okay. Grateful for the opportunity to serve in a different setting.
Talked to Farrinx for a few hours and it's always fun to catch up with her. We are pretty much the same kind of people with the same personality.
1/30 (Sat)
Enjoy a lovely day with the family watching Evan played at the basketball game, and then a trip to downtown for some Vietnamese food.
1/31 (Sun)
A little frustrated at church - mainly the issue of dealing with people. I seriously don't think we need to block a few hours on a sat for more rehearsal, and I can't really function the last minute when someone didn't show up to do their job. What a blessing it is to have a husband with good listening ears!
Talking to Jeannie was the highlight of my day! Johnny and her sorted out the plan for her moving, and decision for her major. She has been cooking a lot more at home, and is trying to stay ahead of the game to finish her homework early. Somehow, I still don't get why she needs to work on her homework on Sunday though. Funny kid! I truly think that she is more attentive and thoughtful about us. She responds quickly to us when we text her. We had a good time chatting and we tried to help her decide on what to do for her entrepreneur class! I hope she felt loved by our genuine support -- probably too much support. Haha
2/1 (Mon)
Busy day to pay off rent, mortgages and bills. Read the ensign message Johnny suggested and had a thought to review of my attitude towards my calling. The voice inside saying, "Are you going to say no if the Lord ask you to serve?" My answer was: Of course not! Then a re-affirming statement came through my head, "The Lord needs you there!" May be I will struggle less after this! :D No doubt that HE loves me! Had some really good laugh at work today. I love this job for every call, every different and challenging!
2/2 (Tue)
Nice day to catch up and celebrate Mary's birthday. I love the decor, the business idea and the coziness of the place. Would have been a perfect day if she didn't get a ticket.
2/3 (Wed)
Great meeting with the RS presidency. I feel like we are getting more united each time we meet. Great ladies to work with. Bless the heart of Maria -- pray that she is able to discern the motive of the "biological" father. Johnny was in NJ for a conference when he texted me that his grandpa was in a critical condition. While driving the kids home after the mutual activity, a few flashes came to my mind -- I saw Johnny's grandma and grandpa (young pictures of them in black and white... grandma probably in her 30s wearing a Chinese gown with a happy smile, and grandpa probably in his 30s as well, in his 4/6 partition hair style. He was in a light grey suit, wearing a tie and white shirt.) I had a feeling that they were reunited!
2/4 (Thur)
Thur morning, I found some poop on the main entrance floor. Jady and I freaked out as we heard the bird flying in our house. No one knows how long it's been with us, where and how it gets inside the house. I opened the door and tried to guide the bird outside, but then I heard a few noise at the window and saw the bird tried to crash through the window. I finally opened up the window for the bird and when I no longer hear the noise, I thought it was gone and close the window. But then, Jady screamed again and this time I had a up close eye contact with the bird as it was standing on top of the lamp shade. It was not the most colorful bird, brownish, greyish color, but I had this feeling that we both understand each other -- somehow! Then, I opened the door again and it left before I grabbed my phone to take a picture. I so wished I had a picture taken! This happened on the same day when grandpa was taken to the hospital by the helicopter.
Had a nice visit with Mary G. I just don't know how much some people can take on. Bless her heart with all the trials that she had and is having. Why can't she get a break? I wondered in my head...
Enrichment night went well! It was awesome to see the old and young sisters working together on the blankets. I honestly believe that service project do the magic for this activity!!!
2/5 (Fri)
Grandpa passed away today. Johnny was sad for a little bit and he is going to fly home for the funeral. As I thought back, we should have called or sent grandpa a picture before he passed on so that he knows that we were thinking of him and that we love him.
Never delay the moment to act on any special prompting!
2/6 (Sat)
Evan finally enjoy the championship title in the stake Ping Pong tournament!! He was so proud of himself this round! His team also made the 1st runner up at the stake basketball game. The fun hasn't stopped as he and his friends went to a car show (Sister A was a super nice lady who always that them to places!), then some szechun food and a party! These kids had so much energy!
You know how much your son loves you and remembers you when he packed the chili pepper home after dinner. Silly kid! :D
Super busy day with all the cleaning and preparation for the Chinese New Year and the coming of Jermenixxx family for the ice cream social. We had a great time with them. I love this sweet family and I wish all these young families be able to form a support group. This generation as well as the youth in the church makes me worry. I wondered what it takes to make them united. It's so crucial to hang onto one another for support or soon we will be losing these kids to the outside world. We can't afford to lose them!
2/7 (Sun)
Great testimony meeting!! Who would think of the Mongolian sister who traveled to the state, not knowing the language, but wanted to learn the gospel and get baptized? And here he is - Ab, who came back from his mission a year ago, who speaks fluent Mongolian and is ready to teach this special soul.
I constantly chase after dreams, goals, career and plans for the future. I am power driven by desire -- but all of a sudden I realized today that these plans are very fragile because the Lord is in control of every single details in our lives! He sees the big picture, he knows our personality, and he will give us what we want when the time is right. It doesn't mean that we just sit there and wait for it to happen, but instead, we can leave it to the Lord and trust that he will give us the best, and the things that what we ask for at the right time and in the right place. It's just that simple!
Love Judy's insight regarding journal writing -- she said, "Record your journal even if it's only one sentence a day -- your children will love you!"
I told you she is a very wise friend!
Thursday, January 28, 2016
1/22 - 1/28
1/22 (Fri) Grateful for Good Dr and a good friend
Went to see Dr. Melli for the tingling/numbness sensation on my fingertips and arm, and eye twitching for the past two weeks. She suggested that I might have a pinched nerve. Quickly she ordered me a EMG testing scheduled the end of Feb. Hope it shed some lights to my problem. Just love how efficient she is!
And if the whole world doesn't care, I know someone do! Rushing through lunch with Michelle because of the Dr appointment. She called me the day after and told me that she was mad at me when I didn't call her back to tell her my result. That's what a true friend is like -- we don't always see each other, but I know she would be there for me if I need. Love her to pieces!!
1/23 (Sat) Grateful for a Husband who has so much Faith
I was really upset with Genexx for passing the next two month's job to someone else. Before I signed up with LLS, I've made up my mind that I will stay with Genexx and travel to meet with the client -- a good two hours of driving with minimum paid. I would have do so much better staying at home working for LLS. I still remember vividly the morning when the company called me so desperately for help and despite of the long commute and lack of notice, I went to see their client. What a disappointment and a bad day I had. Thank goodness for Johnny's remarks at lunch, "Do you have FAITH that better things are coming?... You need to truly BELIEVE that!" I have been really good at reminding me this "The BEST is yet to come!" but I totally forgot about it that day -- Think I need to make a plague for my new favorite quote.
1/24 (Sun) Snow in/No Church Service
We got almost three ft of snow in one day. It was crazy, but we stayed home, chilled and hang out since Johnny's flight got cancelled. It was a good day with rest... but then all the LLS training started in the evening.
1/25 (Mon) -- No School!
We took the kids to Amanx before Johnny left to the airport. We were all stuffed when we came home. It was a relaxing day and I spent most of my time doing web base training. How could anyone possibly remembered or recalled the material and information from four different modules and twenty-four sessions (20-30 mins each) in two and a half day. Not only that... we are required to have 80% or higher in all four assessments in order to enrolled to the 6 hour led base training! If I don't pass, then I will have to wait until the end of next month. Thank goodness again for the snow -- so that I don't need to rush, wake up early and drive to seminary!
1/26 (Tue) -- No School again, being Safe or Saved!!!
SAT registration with Evan... The FDA guy had a last minute schedule for a survey with Evan... Dinner... Then trying to get Jady to violin lesson while the roads are still icy. The driver behind long hoked me for a good few seconds as I was trying to switch over to his lane not noticing his car. I swerved -- I mean BIG swerved a few times uncontrollably, and probably over corrected myself due to the slippery ground. The driver drove past me impatiently! Thank God preserving the lives of Jady and I. There was yet another car right behind us as I looked into the mirror. We could had been on the news on that busy 202 highway. Think that driver must had slowed down as he/she saw me panic.
1/27 (Wed) -- Thank You for mom and the Garcia Family!
Talked to mom this morning since I haven't figured out a way to sort out the issue with the phone features. Work required to have a plain service line without any call features but Johnny doesn't want to let go of the service. I was frustrated to not having a solution ready but my mom just laughed at my frustration -- and that's when I started to relax! The problems won't disappeared just because I get frustrated. Anyway, it all worked out the last minute as I sent Johnny an email that I had ordered a new service line. We know what we want or don't want as we are forced to make a decision. It's especially true when under time constraint. HAHA :D
Passed and submitted all the necessary assessments before the deadline. The kids had a two hour delay and it is such a big help at least in my situation. I didn't even want to make food to be really honest but I did anyway. Surprisingly the fish, tomato/basil artichoke dish turned out extremely well! I would definitely do it again in the future! Then Anna came to pick up Evan to church and she even offered to take him home so that I didn't need to drive. Love my sweet friend!
1/28 (Thur) -- Last Day of Training, Yeah!
Kids were back to school in full force and I started out early with the 6 hours of led base training. The final day has came and I am so looking forward to work from home. Just ordered my headset and stuff today so I can start working next week.
Went to see Dr. Melli for the tingling/numbness sensation on my fingertips and arm, and eye twitching for the past two weeks. She suggested that I might have a pinched nerve. Quickly she ordered me a EMG testing scheduled the end of Feb. Hope it shed some lights to my problem. Just love how efficient she is!
And if the whole world doesn't care, I know someone do! Rushing through lunch with Michelle because of the Dr appointment. She called me the day after and told me that she was mad at me when I didn't call her back to tell her my result. That's what a true friend is like -- we don't always see each other, but I know she would be there for me if I need. Love her to pieces!!
1/23 (Sat) Grateful for a Husband who has so much Faith
I was really upset with Genexx for passing the next two month's job to someone else. Before I signed up with LLS, I've made up my mind that I will stay with Genexx and travel to meet with the client -- a good two hours of driving with minimum paid. I would have do so much better staying at home working for LLS. I still remember vividly the morning when the company called me so desperately for help and despite of the long commute and lack of notice, I went to see their client. What a disappointment and a bad day I had. Thank goodness for Johnny's remarks at lunch, "Do you have FAITH that better things are coming?... You need to truly BELIEVE that!" I have been really good at reminding me this "The BEST is yet to come!" but I totally forgot about it that day -- Think I need to make a plague for my new favorite quote.
1/24 (Sun) Snow in/No Church Service
We got almost three ft of snow in one day. It was crazy, but we stayed home, chilled and hang out since Johnny's flight got cancelled. It was a good day with rest... but then all the LLS training started in the evening.
1/25 (Mon) -- No School!
We took the kids to Amanx before Johnny left to the airport. We were all stuffed when we came home. It was a relaxing day and I spent most of my time doing web base training. How could anyone possibly remembered or recalled the material and information from four different modules and twenty-four sessions (20-30 mins each) in two and a half day. Not only that... we are required to have 80% or higher in all four assessments in order to enrolled to the 6 hour led base training! If I don't pass, then I will have to wait until the end of next month. Thank goodness again for the snow -- so that I don't need to rush, wake up early and drive to seminary!
1/26 (Tue) -- No School again, being Safe or Saved!!!
SAT registration with Evan... The FDA guy had a last minute schedule for a survey with Evan... Dinner... Then trying to get Jady to violin lesson while the roads are still icy. The driver behind long hoked me for a good few seconds as I was trying to switch over to his lane not noticing his car. I swerved -- I mean BIG swerved a few times uncontrollably, and probably over corrected myself due to the slippery ground. The driver drove past me impatiently! Thank God preserving the lives of Jady and I. There was yet another car right behind us as I looked into the mirror. We could had been on the news on that busy 202 highway. Think that driver must had slowed down as he/she saw me panic.
1/27 (Wed) -- Thank You for mom and the Garcia Family!
Talked to mom this morning since I haven't figured out a way to sort out the issue with the phone features. Work required to have a plain service line without any call features but Johnny doesn't want to let go of the service. I was frustrated to not having a solution ready but my mom just laughed at my frustration -- and that's when I started to relax! The problems won't disappeared just because I get frustrated. Anyway, it all worked out the last minute as I sent Johnny an email that I had ordered a new service line. We know what we want or don't want as we are forced to make a decision. It's especially true when under time constraint. HAHA :D
Passed and submitted all the necessary assessments before the deadline. The kids had a two hour delay and it is such a big help at least in my situation. I didn't even want to make food to be really honest but I did anyway. Surprisingly the fish, tomato/basil artichoke dish turned out extremely well! I would definitely do it again in the future! Then Anna came to pick up Evan to church and she even offered to take him home so that I didn't need to drive. Love my sweet friend!
1/28 (Thur) -- Last Day of Training, Yeah!
Kids were back to school in full force and I started out early with the 6 hours of led base training. The final day has came and I am so looking forward to work from home. Just ordered my headset and stuff today so I can start working next week.
Thursday, January 21, 2016
Grateful for a place called HOME!
1/20
Johnny and I had followed a family on and off since the kids were young but we lost in touch with them when the family stopped coming to church. The mom was in her 30s and she has 4 children from different men. One of the sons just got out from the detention center -- a kid we used to fellowship. We don't know for what reason he was charged but from him we knew that wasn't a pleasant place to be. I pray that he will turn around and never go back there. We also saw his sister there at the house. She was under my wing for a little bit when she was younger and now is all grown into adulthood - working hard, getting ready to graduate from college and helping out with the family! I am so very proud of her for staying on track. Her younger sister, however, had a baby as a teenager and that makes her mom a grandmother at age 30 something.
Refresh back years ago, there were many times I stopped by and drove by their home and thought of the challenge of raising the children in the ghetto and in their circumstances. I wondered how their lives would be like as a grown up... and this is the kind of reality brought about, which sometimes can be sad. The outside circumstances can lead us to somewhere we don't belong; however, the teachings inside a home can be key factor in making up all the differences.
I am grateful for the teachings of the church that helps Johnny and I raise our children - to be responsible, honest, helpful, happy citizens. I am grateful to be able to stay at home to be there for my children and to provide a place for refugee and peace -- a place for our children to come home and decompress, a place for them to express their thoughts and challenges in lives, and a place they can share laughter, joy and sadness.
Johnny and I had followed a family on and off since the kids were young but we lost in touch with them when the family stopped coming to church. The mom was in her 30s and she has 4 children from different men. One of the sons just got out from the detention center -- a kid we used to fellowship. We don't know for what reason he was charged but from him we knew that wasn't a pleasant place to be. I pray that he will turn around and never go back there. We also saw his sister there at the house. She was under my wing for a little bit when she was younger and now is all grown into adulthood - working hard, getting ready to graduate from college and helping out with the family! I am so very proud of her for staying on track. Her younger sister, however, had a baby as a teenager and that makes her mom a grandmother at age 30 something.
Refresh back years ago, there were many times I stopped by and drove by their home and thought of the challenge of raising the children in the ghetto and in their circumstances. I wondered how their lives would be like as a grown up... and this is the kind of reality brought about, which sometimes can be sad. The outside circumstances can lead us to somewhere we don't belong; however, the teachings inside a home can be key factor in making up all the differences.
I am grateful for the teachings of the church that helps Johnny and I raise our children - to be responsible, honest, helpful, happy citizens. I am grateful to be able to stay at home to be there for my children and to provide a place for refugee and peace -- a place for our children to come home and decompress, a place for them to express their thoughts and challenges in lives, and a place they can share laughter, joy and sadness.
Tuesday, January 19, 2016
1/16-1/19
1/16 (Sat)
There is no hope of retrieving his phone. As I sat down with Evan and talked about forgiveness -- my son surprised me with a great attitude. He acknowledged his feeling of sadness over the lost phone and all his contacts, but he also reassured me that he's not upset with the kid anymore for he said, "Well, I thought the kid probably is not coming from the best circumstances!" He is definitely a much larger person in spirit than I thought. I love my son!
1/17 (Sun)
Grateful for my companion who sacrifice her time to visit Michelle and Gloria with me. I thought her family gathering was cancelled when Gina told me that she could go to visit teach. I didn't find out until later that her husband and kids had already left to the sister-in-law's house after our appointments. I was so thankful for her example to me -- for sacrificing her time to visit the sisters she loves. I offered to take her to Exton so that she could catch up with her family and sister-in-law. Love my day!
1/18 (Mon)
MLK - went out to dim sum with some Asian friends. I love how honest and funny they are even though we haven't only known each other for a short period of time. I especially love to see how the kids played card games and jingles without holding their ipads and phones!
1/19 (Tue)
Grateful for the one hour drive to and from work that gave me time to think about life and listened to my favorite music.
As I left the state hospital, I had a glimpse of what it is like to live with someone who has mental illnesses. The LEP was upset and got up to leave without a word when the medical panel refuse to grant her wish to go home. In her mind, switching to another facility would cause money and that thought has been implanted for years according to the psychologist. The patient did not believe in the advice that all the services she rendered is being paid for. Going home would not be an option either since she refused to make a transit to a group facility. This is my first experience ever in dealing with people with mental disorder, and it truly saddens me to see how lock up a mind can be. She reminded me of Chris who committed suicide last summer. It did had a moment to admire the patience our friends had for their son.
The state people (medical panel) was trying to keep her protected at the hospital because past history had shown that the patient was not able to perform the basic skills such as cooking, showering and eating while living by herself. Moving onto a group facility will provide her with the needed training for this purpose. The biggest hurdle is that she thinks she is 25 (her mental stage) when in reality she is 57. She also thought that she pays me to be her attorney to get her out of the hospital.
My heart ache as I saw her in such an illusionary, painful state. I bet thoughts and issues that she can't rectify will torn her into pieces. Then I thought of Chris. I couldn't help but ask myself, if I were in their situation, would I rather be free and die or would I rather be lock up unwillingly and be miserable for the rest of my life? There is no good answer to this but at least in Chris -- I hope and wish that he is problem free now!
There is no hope of retrieving his phone. As I sat down with Evan and talked about forgiveness -- my son surprised me with a great attitude. He acknowledged his feeling of sadness over the lost phone and all his contacts, but he also reassured me that he's not upset with the kid anymore for he said, "Well, I thought the kid probably is not coming from the best circumstances!" He is definitely a much larger person in spirit than I thought. I love my son!
1/17 (Sun)
Grateful for my companion who sacrifice her time to visit Michelle and Gloria with me. I thought her family gathering was cancelled when Gina told me that she could go to visit teach. I didn't find out until later that her husband and kids had already left to the sister-in-law's house after our appointments. I was so thankful for her example to me -- for sacrificing her time to visit the sisters she loves. I offered to take her to Exton so that she could catch up with her family and sister-in-law. Love my day!
1/18 (Mon)
MLK - went out to dim sum with some Asian friends. I love how honest and funny they are even though we haven't only known each other for a short period of time. I especially love to see how the kids played card games and jingles without holding their ipads and phones!
1/19 (Tue)
Grateful for the one hour drive to and from work that gave me time to think about life and listened to my favorite music.
As I left the state hospital, I had a glimpse of what it is like to live with someone who has mental illnesses. The LEP was upset and got up to leave without a word when the medical panel refuse to grant her wish to go home. In her mind, switching to another facility would cause money and that thought has been implanted for years according to the psychologist. The patient did not believe in the advice that all the services she rendered is being paid for. Going home would not be an option either since she refused to make a transit to a group facility. This is my first experience ever in dealing with people with mental disorder, and it truly saddens me to see how lock up a mind can be. She reminded me of Chris who committed suicide last summer. It did had a moment to admire the patience our friends had for their son.
The state people (medical panel) was trying to keep her protected at the hospital because past history had shown that the patient was not able to perform the basic skills such as cooking, showering and eating while living by herself. Moving onto a group facility will provide her with the needed training for this purpose. The biggest hurdle is that she thinks she is 25 (her mental stage) when in reality she is 57. She also thought that she pays me to be her attorney to get her out of the hospital.
My heart ache as I saw her in such an illusionary, painful state. I bet thoughts and issues that she can't rectify will torn her into pieces. Then I thought of Chris. I couldn't help but ask myself, if I were in their situation, would I rather be free and die or would I rather be lock up unwillingly and be miserable for the rest of my life? There is no good answer to this but at least in Chris -- I hope and wish that he is problem free now!
Thursday, January 14, 2016
Phone Recovery Maybe?
Thankful for the help with a few church leaders who were able to locate Evan's phone. After the leaders got a hold of the phone log, they talked to kid retrieved part of Evan's phone with the help of the police. Someone admitted of taking Evan's phone apart and use them in two separate phones. We are still waiting for the answer on where the other part of the phone is.
Somehow my heart ache as I heard from Johnny that the police was involved for the investigation.
1) I couldn't help imagine the life of these kids who live in the city. How much temptation they have and how much struggle they've gone through -- but still can't justify of him stealing.
2) It must be heartbreaking and devastating when the parents find out that their kids are in trouble.
I am totally grateful for the power of prayer, repentance and the atonement. I pray that the kid will learn a lesson this time and never get into more serious trouble in the future.
Our soul worth so much more than any temporal material/substance on earth.
Grateful for Michelle G. and Music Teacher
1/13
We got our first snow of the season today!!! The weather is a bit cold and there is no seminary! Awesome!
Had a funny conversation with Michelle and updated my work details, forms and tests with her. How I love this friend of mine. She always make my day whenever we chat. Pray that she will quit smoking, regain her strength, and start coming to church soon.
So thankful that Jady has signed up with a good violin teacher, Allison who is able to motivate her to practice. A great teacher make such a big difference. Jady had so much fun at the store playing with the different instrument that she didn't want to leave.
We got our first snow of the season today!!! The weather is a bit cold and there is no seminary! Awesome!
Had a funny conversation with Michelle and updated my work details, forms and tests with her. How I love this friend of mine. She always make my day whenever we chat. Pray that she will quit smoking, regain her strength, and start coming to church soon.
So thankful that Jady has signed up with a good violin teacher, Allison who is able to motivate her to practice. A great teacher make such a big difference. Jady had so much fun at the store playing with the different instrument that she didn't want to leave.
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Struggle is Real!
1/12
I struggle whether I should write this down but it would be unreal if I only record the good but not the bad coz life is not rosy all the time.
I am always cautious with friends, so when I felt that they are mine, I extended my love whole heartedly. But often times in reality, this is just my thinking -- and it broke my heart not once but many, many times. I hid my emotions pretty well and pretended that I don't care, but deep down inside, I do!! MG is one the few that I am struggling with right now. We used to hang out when she is in town, but her door is closed since last May when she was upset with my "unwelcomed" advice -- the time she found out her son wanted to move in with his dad. I thought she needs time for herself and didn't want to open up so I gave her space and left her alone. It used to be that she would tell me that she wouldn't trust the sisters in the ward, but now I found out that she would go and talk to others but me. I am glad that she found people to talk to, but the ones who she talked would feed on her story. I texted her on and off since she came back and tried to arrange for a get together and she would decline my offer. She didn't mention a word about her mom and son but I knew what's going on with her life as a presidency. She looked uncomfortable and made a comment that news spread out so quickly when we visited her mom at the hospital.
My heart ached to see our friendship fell apart, and for what she is going through. I am tired to be a strong person. I am tired of giving and asking for a relationship that is not base on mutual acceptance. I fail badly this time!
Grateful for the power of prayer -- for all that I could think of is to pray for her and her family.
I struggle whether I should write this down but it would be unreal if I only record the good but not the bad coz life is not rosy all the time.
I am always cautious with friends, so when I felt that they are mine, I extended my love whole heartedly. But often times in reality, this is just my thinking -- and it broke my heart not once but many, many times. I hid my emotions pretty well and pretended that I don't care, but deep down inside, I do!! MG is one the few that I am struggling with right now. We used to hang out when she is in town, but her door is closed since last May when she was upset with my "unwelcomed" advice -- the time she found out her son wanted to move in with his dad. I thought she needs time for herself and didn't want to open up so I gave her space and left her alone. It used to be that she would tell me that she wouldn't trust the sisters in the ward, but now I found out that she would go and talk to others but me. I am glad that she found people to talk to, but the ones who she talked would feed on her story. I texted her on and off since she came back and tried to arrange for a get together and she would decline my offer. She didn't mention a word about her mom and son but I knew what's going on with her life as a presidency. She looked uncomfortable and made a comment that news spread out so quickly when we visited her mom at the hospital.
My heart ached to see our friendship fell apart, and for what she is going through. I am tired to be a strong person. I am tired of giving and asking for a relationship that is not base on mutual acceptance. I fail badly this time!
Grateful for the power of prayer -- for all that I could think of is to pray for her and her family.
Sunday, January 10, 2016
Grateful for this friend called Judy
Oh Judy! She is absolutely my favorite person in this ward. Her gentle gesture made up all the difference for the rest of my time at church today. When she found out that I was in a foul mood, she gave me a hug, kissed me on my cheek, told me that she loves me and felt sorry that I had a bad experience at church today. The power of compassionate service was examplifier in her. She words had soften my heart!!!!
What happened was.... I was totally irritated by some members being so irreverent and inconsiderate of others when they chatted and laughed so loud behind the overflow ignoring the fact that there were members having Sunday school in the chapel. With my poor hearing, I jumped up to the other side to make a complaint. It was quiet for a little bit, but then the noise went back up again. In my opinion, for those who choose not to go to the class and would like to chat, they could go to a different location to meet with people. My spirit was highly distributed, and my thought was like why do these people come when they don't want to be in class to learn? I am imperfect and that's why I want to come to get help -- to gain a testimony and some spiritual experience.
How are we going to teach our kids to enjoy church, to be reverent, respectful ,and most importantly love the gospel/doctrine if we don't hold true with our own behavior?
Thank goodness for the Lord who granted me Judy! I love her so, so much!
What happened was.... I was totally irritated by some members being so irreverent and inconsiderate of others when they chatted and laughed so loud behind the overflow ignoring the fact that there were members having Sunday school in the chapel. With my poor hearing, I jumped up to the other side to make a complaint. It was quiet for a little bit, but then the noise went back up again. In my opinion, for those who choose not to go to the class and would like to chat, they could go to a different location to meet with people. My spirit was highly distributed, and my thought was like why do these people come when they don't want to be in class to learn? I am imperfect and that's why I want to come to get help -- to gain a testimony and some spiritual experience.
How are we going to teach our kids to enjoy church, to be reverent, respectful ,and most importantly love the gospel/doctrine if we don't hold true with our own behavior?
Thank goodness for the Lord who granted me Judy! I love her so, so much!
Happiness is...
Happiness is when Evan felt comfortable to share with me his thoughts and struggles. It's tough to go through rough times, and I was totally surprised, and shouted with joy from the bottom of my heart to know that he trusted me and wanted to talk to me about what is going with his life. I put down all my electronic device, and just focus on him even though his eyes were fixed on the TV. I don't think he was paying much attention to the program at all as we talk. Praying for an invitation of the spirit to fill my mind so that I will be able to say the right thing, teach him the correct principal, and gave him the needed advice next time we had this type of conversation.
Friday, January 8, 2016
The Power of Letting Go...
It's been a full year since the last time I talked to my neighbor, Jan. The issue with the school bus stop and bus driver has left a wedge to both of our families. When Ms. Helen didn't show up yesterday, I asked Jan if she knew what happened to Ms. Helen. She responded calmly (this time) and we chatted a little later on. Then, I apologized for the things that happened last year without much details and gave her a hug. She tried to explain her points on the issue again but I was more interested in mending the relationship and move on. Life has been a little difficult for me in the past few months because Jan was reluctant to talk to me. But today, we were both set free!!! I am grateful for the gospel that teaches me to have self discipline, to forgive, and let go. There is a time and season for things to happen... if it hasn't happened, just wait and be patient because the Lord will never fail at his promise!
Thursday, January 7, 2016
Grateful Project 365
I sucked at keeping a journal, but with this brand new year, I am determined to start a happy/grateful project to record the simple things that makes me happy, or the kind gesture I received or provided to the people I interacted with. Seven days has gone by, so tracing back to Jan 1 could be a little tricky. Here we go:
1/1 (Fri)
Grateful for the opportunity to play for Bro. McCuxx's funeral yesterday. He was a quiet man with lots of integrity. Many good memories were shared, and I guess this is what we all strive for in the end of life. Not how successful we are with our career, but what good we left behind. We sure will miss him.
Happiness is when I got the text that Jeannie is back to Provo safe and sound. I was really worried about the snow and ice on the ground, but the roads were clear when as Arayxx drove her home.
Grateful for the friends who thought of us and invited us to a dinner/karoke gathering for the New Year.
1/2 (Sat)
Grateful for the missionaries who came to our house for dinner and uplift us with their message. I could feel how happy they are while serving a mission.
Thankful that we were able to provide a place for Evan and his friends to party.. though I disapproved and rolled my eyes when I saw them throwing ping pong balls into the plastic cups filled with soda.
1/3 (Sun)
Grateful for Sarah's effort in preparing and presenting the 2015 RS end of year video. The pictures of the individual sisters and group made me realize how unique we are and how much we needed each other -- to lean on and thrive in the gospel.
1/4 (Mon)
So happy that I got some cool stuff, made it to the post office, and mailed out the birthday package to Jeannie before 4pm (the mail lady said the package should be there by Thursday. And I finally nailed at a post from pinterest... the melting snowman is not that difficult to reproduce.
Grateful that I passed the ISA test from LLS! Waiting for the next big step!
1/5 (Tue)
Glad that Jady and I got to spent 1/2 hour playing with the keyboard/sythesizers/workstation at SamAxx after her violin lesson. What a great way to help her realize that everyone can create music. Playing/practicing instrument is fun and never should be a drag.
Such a relieve to hear that there is yet another option to work for the company. I was pretty worried that my hours would leave me without much flexibility but Teresa told me that I could sign in as a freelancer and work whenever I want. I was thrilled to hear about the opportunity. The Lord knows me and probably laughs at a commitment runner like me.
1/6 (Wed)
Thankful for the sweet postman who closed my PO box account without putting a charge on my late payment and one missing key. Don't think I would ever receive the same treatment had it been a different person at the office.
Grateful for the little candy treat Ana Garxx gave me on my way out to the chapel last night. She was such a great friend and sister. I love her sweet family!
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