Home Tomorrow?

I spent most of the day packing... still felt like this is a dream.  I never thought of going home under this circumstances.... never thought that I go home for a funeral, for my uncle 7.  It truly hit hard as it's getting close to my departure.  The realization came that this really is the last time I will see him...... I might be better off not going home in the first place... at least he will live in my heart forever.  I need to stop crying...  it's   tough enough to go home without the kids and Johnny.